Yes, Indeed, It is Christmas Eve. The last one of the 80’s. The candles are lit, and Scrooge is on TV and yet, the pervading feeling I am experiencing is loneliness. I have spent the last two Christmas Eve’s with Char, and not being with her causes me some amount of (pain) remorse.
I had a job this week. I worked for a Big company called Lederer Terminal doing mostly grunt work. I met a guy named Mike. He is in the Army, in a Fraternity, and Jewish, but I still kind of liked him. Hopefully, this will pay for books.
Yesterday Mom had a big get together for Christmas. All the Cleveland relatives were here, as well as the Fransons. I got to hold Kyle. He is the cutest baby. I talked to Char briefly. Watched the Browns beat Houston to get into the playoffs again. But tonight I am lonely.
Tomorrow all of the immediate family will be coming over for Christmas dinner and to open gifts (all except Nate that is). I already know what I am getting, so Christmas morning has no mysteriousness for me.
I just long for companionship. I am not used to being alone here. At school, all I have ever been was alone so there isn’t a problem. However, at home, I always had Char, and now that I don’t have her, I long for anyone. I guess I’m not a good bachelor. I need to start dating at school, but I cannot afford it, and I wont have my car. Actually, I can handle it at school because there are always people around. Its when I am truly alone that I feel lonely. Ah well. . .